Above is a day of grievances written by my younger son against my older son. Those things didn’t happen quite like that (if you can read them) but sometimes you just want to feel like shit and blame everyone else. I’m about there tonight. I know there are terrible things in the world and problems…
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Like this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIN6qbtNjec
A dear friend and colleague was cleaning out his office before changing jobs and gave me this tiny little book called “The Art of Eternal Love.” Get your mind out of the gutter. It’s about infinite love as a practice: focusing your love on that thing that exists beyond us and in everyone, and about…
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I’ve been thinking lately about where thoughts come from–if you read this article while you’re reading that novel and watch this documentary during the same time period vs being exposed to the same three things further apart from one another or in a different order, how does that affect what in particular you latch onto…
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Teach myself to wait. Teach myself to talk about what’s on the news. Teach myself to be less raw, to chafe less at memories. Teach myself to do nothing, say nothing. Teach myself not to want you to give me that look. Teach myself to finish what I’ve started. Teach myself to clean the house…
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I’m procrastinating. By doing stuff like this: Dorm Room. I read my advice to myself (previous post) to the veteran writers in the workshop group I wrote it in last week and SGT Linsey Siu sent me this in a message afterwards. A list of quotes by very accomplished people (who are extraordinarily wise). My favorite…
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Going on a trip. Seeing beautiful people and going to a poetry workshop. Sometimes being in a new place makes me nervous, sometimes being around people who are more accomplished than I am makes me forget my gratitude for all the beauty I have, sometimes my fears keep me rooted in a spot–literally and creatively.…
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Last weekend we watched a documentary about how the universe is expanding, and some scientists believe that it’s expanding without curvature–expanding infinitely, never to touch back upon itself. What this means (according to this documentary) is that every eventuality possible in your life has occurred–every choice you’ve made, the alternate choice was made by some…
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I’ve been reading this collection of Adrienne Rich’s essays on motherhood for months now. I pick it up, read a few pages, my worldview shifts, I put it down and look at everything through a different lens. It’s a battered, flagged, highlighted, marked up book; I have pages of notes inside it. And this, from…
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